My Paradox

My Paradox

How can you be the victim of a crime and still the one at fault?

How can a secret still be a secret if you tell everyone you know?

How can someone too weak to hold a child carry the burdens of a man?

It’s too confusing to comprehend?

Step into my paradox…

How can I be over something that I think about everyday?

Cry dry tears that stream down my face.

Can’t show to much real emotion,

Might get figured out.

Step into my paradox…

Helping everyone else

To prevent helping my self

It’s a trick no one sees but me

Like children playing hind and go seek

Step into my paradox…

The only place where you can find me

Is in these words I speak my peace

Verbs and nouns brain and soul meet

Around the bend here we go again

Step into my paradox…

I know it’s past time for me to let it go

And I’m trying to everyday

But I’ve got to do it in my way

Travel with me or stay behind

Step into my paradox…

Am I a good girl or am I bad

Feel my feelings happy or sad

A smile on my face doesn’t mean I’m glad

A bout of laugher might mean I’m mad.

Step into my paradox…

A winding road under a rickety bridge

Slippery slope and I have slid.

A bumpy path with a fork in the road

Navigation on Spanish mode

Step into my paradox…

Am I up or am I down

A brand new queen with a broken crown

I want this feeling to go away

I want to leave but I have to stay

Step into my paradox…

I’m getting it out the best way I know how

I’m putting pen to pad writing this thing down

Because I’m not trying to hold on

I want to be free

Breaking out of my paradox…

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